I'll start by saying the last few years haven't been great. Could they have been worse? Definitely. I am very grateful for the wonderful things in my life. Family, friends, their health and mine. I have a job I love, for now. Being an English teacher doesn't leave very much opportunity for full time positions so job uncertainty is always on my mind. My break up was also extremely challenging for me. Who knew heartbreak was so crippling. Ok. Everybody knows. I just hadn't felt it to that extent before. Over the last few years I feel like I completely lost myself inside and out. I am still dealing with issues, but feeling stronger. With these issues came weight gain. Although I had been working out frequently, my diet wasn't balanced. I was eating very well at times but not enough and/or eating things I shouldn't be.
I am an emotional eater. Chocolate is what eases my pain or celebrates happiness with me. It's a reaction for me and not a decision. If I could count the pounds of chocolate Ive eaten while dealing with my break up. Oh wait, I can count the pounds. Im wearing them!
Lately Ive been barely squeezing into my clothes. I put on my jeans an hour before I leave the house so they can loosen up and be wearable. I refuse to buy new clothes in a bigger size. The not fitting into my clothes was probably the last determining factor for me in my decision to HAVE to make a change and do it NOW.
Ive been feeling better lately. I still feel some sadness and regrets. The break up is one of the worst times of my life and not something I handled well or gracefully. In regard to my job, I keep taking courses and doing my best in hopes I will be in the right place at the right time and after seven years, finally have a permanent position. Now that Ive been feeling more like myself again, because the last few years Im not sure who I was, I feel more motivated to take action and make some positive changes in my life. A huge issue for me right now is my weight.
I usually weigh around 160. A size I am not comfortable with but seem to carry well. Ive had successful weight loss in the past. A healthy diet and regular workouts allowed me to drop 18 pounds after which I weighed in at 147. A size I was happy with but didn't stay very long. I gained it back and then some. Today, I am 175!
As mentioned, squeezing into my clothes was the last determining factor. Also, I haven't been wanting to go out because I have been feeling terrible about myself. This weight loss wasn't going to stop until I made a change. I had done the Isagenix 9 day cleanse last year and lost ten pounds and my roomie had just done one and lost 13 pounds so I considered doing that again. The last time I did it it gave me a boost but I did not successfully keep the weight off and I learned why.
I looked online and researched the product again and then found a great representative, Cindy. She suggested I do the thirty day cleanse for a number of reasons. One being that I need to create a lifestyle change and healthy habits. This cannot be done over 9 days. Also, I haven't had energy in, what it feels like, years. Every day feels like survival. Cindy told me that my body is in an acidic state and it takes 21 days to return your body to an alkaline stated or to balance your ph. Over 30 days I will cut out my bad habits and make good ones. The 30 day cleanse will give me antioxidants, supplementation and the healthy meals that I should be having. I reseached online some more, looked at personal success stories real people posted on youtube, and decided to go for it. But thirty days seemed like a long time. How was I going to do this successfully? With friends.
I posted that I was doing a cleanse on my FaceBook page and asked if anyone wanted to join me for support. Three friends replied so we all started together. The other three chose the 9 day cleanse, but Im thinking they'll be back for the 30 ;) So with the support of friends and Cindy, my 30 day journey begins.
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